definition of trust..

i no longer noe wat does trust means at all..all i noe is i dun trust guys anymore despite my last failed r/ns.. r words louder than actions, i think i fully agree with this sentence..i alr tried my very best to trust and trust and comfort myself that my r/ns this time round will be successful..but guess is to early to say for nw rite..therefore i guess the best solution is to zou yi bu kan yi bu..everything is going to end soon, my 2 yrs in perth is going to end soon..juz pray hard for my exams and hope everything will go smoothly and up to my expectation..the missing feelings without him by my side is gonna be terrible, but nevertheless, can i handle this ldr again..i really dun haf the confidence anymore, but hopefully watever he says prove me wrong, tat i could actually fully trust guys again..i juz wan to haf a stable r/ns and stop searching for any guys anymore..is he my ideal 1?well, i think is too early to say so..