i miss you..

i thought i am strong enough, however, nite starts to fall in..my mind is starting to wonder ard, thinking of the happy times when im over thr for holiday..wat will we be doing in the evening, remembering the favourite spot of drinking coffee with him..im starting to feel sad and emotional..he is lost,but, i noe im lost as well..but im juz pretending in front of him, pretend to be strong in front of him.. the whole day searching for jobs, nv rest at all..i feel so scared at times, the working life, how does it look like..seriously needed him by my side, but, i noe i cant be selfish..every1 has to pursue their own life, he shd pursue for his future studying..i haf been telling him to be strong, but wat abt me, am i really strong enough to carry on with myself..r we both simply too attached to each other, r we really still in the honeymoon period..but i only noe tat i cant bear to lose him..the thought of ldr for few yrs seems to be scary for me, wat'll i foreseen nx yr..im getting worried..y does my confidence level keep on falling, wat am i actually afraid of..yes indeed, afraid of losing him..perhaps everything'll be settled once he got his pr, he wouldnt be so depressed leading his life..at least he has a status in aus, sometimes i wish he could start applying nw, to noe wht he be qualify..i'll pray harder for him to stay strong, god will lead to the right path of his life..i pray to god tat he'll bless in our r/ns and at times to forgive and forget..im officially missing him, and tat's y i love tat song..the song is for him..usually i noe tat when im alone at hme, i'll be expecting him to come hme, but nw thr is no more expectation, but me all alone in d room, thinking alot..i feel like crying, and i noe i needed him alot..i really needed him..