life sucks..

life is juz so sucky when u juz haf to face so much problems in 1 shot..is not juz only the problems that belong to yourself but thr is also your partner's problem to face..everything juz come together when u r juz simply too lost to even find ways to help or consult the other party..sometimes im juz sick of facing this world, waking up everyday, alone, feeling so depressed when the day is such a beautiful day..god teaches us to thank him for the day that he has given me, im trying to make myself be happier each day, i wonder am i juz pretending to be happy at times..am i juz trying to escape everything, am i juz trying to push everything behind and not bother abt it, but in this world, am i even allowed to escape from realism..wat r the ways to make myself feel better, to drink more alcohol and feel better..or even to resort to other danger stuff..i hate to be alone, but i juz refuse to find any1 to tok to, wat am i even trying to do..wat can even satisfy me..im really lost to the max, how can i continue with myself, when i dun even haf any sense of direction..everyday feeling sad and tired..waking up every nw and then, wat is even wrong with my sleeping style..is life tat meaningless..im dun even bother tat i am jobless, but im juz not satisfy with myself..wat am i so gd at telling me wat they shd do, wat kind of route they shd pursue in the future, but y am i so bad at telling myself wat i shd even do nw..i misses all my closest ppl..i feel better when i c my mum, at least she is thr to help me when im really getting into any troubles..i miss my gd frend whom i can tok abt everything regardless family, r/ns, gossiping..i misses my partner even though as and when he is nw with me, juz needed him by my side..but i noe it's not possible for sometime..at times,im really sorry for not be by your side, for jumping into a r/ns with u..but when fate is here, nth can be stopped..i juz pray hard for everything to go smoothly, even though i noe it'll be tough..nth is easy in this world if u wan to achieve in life..