old blogs..

while i was reading my old blog, i was like how come my blog sound so emotional and feel so disgusted all of a sudden..shdnt i even feel happier nw..but at least i can say tat, im much happier ever since im with him..juz a smile frm him makes my day..i simply miss him every single moment and day..ldr can i ever cope it with all the missing feelings even when im right by his side..my feelings for nw and for him: i realise tat im always the 1 venting on my frustration towards him, without considering his feelings, and thr he goes again, trying to make me happy and finding ways not to see me angry..i feel guilty each time i lost my temper and patience on him..and i realise tat ppl usually regret aft wat they haf done..im only apologetic towards all the anger that i haf vent on him and i noe ppl's patience haf a limit..and i guess i shd be controlling myself.. sometimes i juz wish he could understand something, gers r like this, wat they say something doesnt meant it tat way..perhaps i shd coach him even more to understand abt gers' feelings..lol..