tasteless and boredom..

y am i feeling so tasteless these few days, izzit cuz of the overdrinking of alcohol..the feeling of getting high and not even knowing wat i am saying, is indeed great..true feelings and thoughts will only be expressed when i am simply "high" on alcohol.. i can only say every day seems to pass by quickly, but the time when i am alone is definitely slow and taking ages.. the feeling of doing nth and rotting till nw seems so bored for me, and left with 24 days towards returning back to jb..whr the tough period is awaiting for me right at the moment when i m back hme..preparing for the worst, searching for jobs, preparing for interview, travelling to and fro sg, i haf to be mentally prepared to the days when i am studying in sg.. i noe i can do it, i haf been travelling to sg for so many yrs, it doesnt matter for me to lead the hard life..for me, pursuing my career, earning more money is the current situation that i haf been looking forward to..i understand that this's the selfish part of me, perhaps time will be spend less on you, but hopefully u'll understand that these r my 2 goals for this yr..schooling is no longer an existence for me and every1 has to pass by the period when working becomes a life long thingy..with no parents providing u anymore money, but we as the children has to use our both hands to earn money and in return gif them a sum of money every month..i guess this is every1's wish in their life but i am only looking forward to this moment, when can i actually get a job, hopefully asap..i am certain that i haf to start work by sept and nth is going to stop me from doing it.. motivation and support is definitely wat i need by tat time..every1 do go thru tough period but i always believe that we'll taste the sweetness if we achieve something..yeah like wat dear always say, look at the positive side, open up your mind..lol..certainly missing him everyday even though i am here by his side..feelings r simply too strong for him..and also not to forget cheryl, i miss u too, if u r reading my blog, u r not forgotten..