holidaying in genting..

i dun even noe whr i wan to go..a short trip to genting, bored though..perhaps is more to accompany my family members, rather than staying hme thinking lots..seems to be the 3rd wk and here i am still feeling down..how am i suppose to get rid of this sadness..how long will i recover..my mentality for guys totally change and all im is pursuing for rich guys..i noe this is a bad thinking but to me love is no longer impt cuz i noe aft all i will lose out again..simply noe tat i will not give all my feelings for the nx r/ns or i will pay for the consequences again..i dun wish to end up getting depressed, thinking lots..my heart is simply pain and i really dunno wat shd i do nw..anyway nx wk will be the last wk in jb and finally bck in perth..to console myself, i nd to concentrate on my studies..studies is all tat matter.. yearning for the working life..

no slp tonite..

sleepless nite..eyes tired but couldnt slp..wat in the world am i thinking abt..missing loads..god all i nd is support frm u..

blogging in cafe..

aft so many days since im bck frm perth, this is like the 1st time im blogging..lol..well so many things happen during 2008..the end of everything..sad though, but wat can i do nw..but glad thr is always a bbf out thr for me, thanz cheryl for lending me a listening ear, consoling me..taking care of me while im drunk..sorry for making a mess out of myself..but tat is wat i needed, i juz noe tat..health isnt tat gd ever since the drinking on sat..heart beating fast and mum suggested me to go for a checkup..but couldnt face the reality if anything happens to my heart..am i really suffering frm a minor depression, thinking too much, am i..well,anyway bbf i miss u alot..missing your companion..