simply depressed..

how to lead life here, wat i needed nw is my mum to be with me,i nd a companion to tok to me, to cheer me up..im struggling very hard, mugging on projects, presentations..and ass i nd to prepare for exams another 3 wks left..my heart has not improve regardless how much pills i haf consume..is getting worst.. i haf nv relaz at all even though im not working..i feel more tired, depressed, no happiness..i wan to go bck jb as soon as i finish, tolerate..be patient..
anyway, congrats to my sis, finally gave birth to a baby boy, yearning to c him so much, wonder how he looks like..oh and i haf no idea wat is his name, shd be shean?? muz be a cute little fellow, n i will dote on him alot, my 1st nephew..

2nd wk

is the 2nd wk of school and hell loads of projects this semester..gosh, i going to faint soon, lol..but nevertheless i will endure with this whole sem, i can do it man right..i will 1st taste the hardships and next the sweetness, praying hard for this sem, god bless me.. and also pls let me haf a regular heart beating, god, pls..is tiring to even hear my heart beat so fast and let me haf a peaceful slp every nite.. i admit i still miss him and it happens when im really down, is a habit, i noe tat..well, the good thing is my sis is giving birth soon in another few wks time, i hope she will take care of herself and im looking forward to my nephew..another family member in the family, i will open up my hands and smile at him: welcome sweety!!

comfort..

i love my mum, standing by my side, supporting me, finding ways to cure my heart pumputation, buying medicines for me, finding ways for me to slp well in the nite, juz in case i really rely out on slping pills..she sending parcels to me, with tea whr her frend mention to her some organic tea that allows her to slp well in the nite..i feel glad with all my frends ard me in perth, im also trying very hard to relaz myself, not to think so much most importantly.. i juz wan my heart to beat to the normal rate and not fast, it might take mths, a yr perhaps, but i will pray to god to help me when i needed him so..my life in perth revolves ard with classes, gym and studying in the nite aft gym..is not going to be a last minute work anymore, every1 has to change..and of cuz thanz to my buddy when i needed her so, juz a phone call and share all my happiness, sadness, gossiping..simply miss u ya..lol..the 1 who always read my blog, anyway, u noe who u r..lol..a big hug!!

depressed..

im depressed and all i needa is sum1 to tok to me..sum1 who is close to me..ass feeling..

back in perth..

finally back to perth and fulfill my last semester..is time to buck up for the brand new yr and i make sure this sem i study hard and at least get a D or HD..it is a must for me, so i muz chiong all the way..i bet this sem is a tough 1, but wat matters most is i muz put in lots of effort, pray hard and hope everything will go smoothly for me..i pray hard tat my heart will not beat so fast and never to think of ending my life..god will be by my side, i sincerly noe tat..