random sleepy blog..

cant wait for exams to end, here im in uni studying and all i noe is im falling asleep soon..i nd some sweet stuff to keep myself awake, and i needed snakes lollies to keep me awake and active..ciggs dun help, neither i cant drink another redbull..is so addictive can..hopefully aft exams, i wouldnt even crave for redbull..dammit..exam period is the worst of the worst, y the hell do we students even haf to sit for exams..no no no, y do we even haf to study..if everyday life is like rotting, slacking and juz simply doing nth, and i haf loads of $, i would be doing endless shopping and endless travelling ard the world independently..my mind is like wondering ard, shit, i nd to get down to work..study early and relaz early..another 9 days to go..and i simply miss hme..

10 days..

yes, indeed another 10 days, i shall be bck in jb..i nd to c my mum,miss her loads and loads..thinking bck the past few mths, alot of things juz randomly happen, but is a blessing though..happy memories and well, a new bf..a doteful and caring bf,i simply love and miss him every single day..it happens whenever i c him off to work or schooling and is always in the morning, juz couldnt let him go..well, bf i miss, but i still miss my frends in sg..anyway cheryl, i cant wait to c u,and bitch ard with u yeah..but most likely u shd be very bz with work..juz wanna catch up with u so badly..and of cuz not to miss out the other fab2, i oso miss u guys too..shall hang out soon ya..yes and only yes,baby gerald,im yearning, waiting, yearning and waiting to c u..i cant wait to carry u big fat kiddy..lol..anyway back to reality, exams r juz simply a painful period of the semester for me..all the stress and heart beating quickly again..but the pain is hopefully ending soon..

motivation seeker..

cant wait for the exam to come man, but den, im lacking of motivation to study, is taking such a long time for the actual paper to come, sianing man..simply hate studying..but den is coming to an end..it is time for my future planning and i realise i m looking at the long-term and best of of,i bet ger r thinking when can they actually settle down..nevertheless, im still without a career and lacking of financial to support myself..still relying on my parents and i feel so ashamed of myself..anyway looking forward to working life, and endure the pain and hardship of building up a career..3 wks left and im going to return bck to jb..happy but sad and painfulness..thr goes the ldr again, will it endure till the last..no idea!!

definition of trust..

i no longer noe wat does trust means at all..all i noe is i dun trust guys anymore despite my last failed r/ns.. r words louder than actions, i think i fully agree with this sentence..i alr tried my very best to trust and trust and comfort myself that my r/ns this time round will be successful..but guess is to early to say for nw rite..therefore i guess the best solution is to zou yi bu kan yi bu..everything is going to end soon, my 2 yrs in perth is going to end soon..juz pray hard for my exams and hope everything will go smoothly and up to my expectation..the missing feelings without him by my side is gonna be terrible, but nevertheless, can i handle this ldr again..i really dun haf the confidence anymore, but hopefully watever he says prove me wrong, tat i could actually fully trust guys again..i juz wan to haf a stable r/ns and stop searching for any guys anymore..is he my ideal 1?well, i think is too early to say so..

1 july

another 4 weeks to go b4 im back hme..exams coming soon, and is time to buck up..sianing..but is time to race to the end and haf a long term break aft exams..but im going back soon on the 1 july, and the main motive to rush back hme is to see my nephew and also to take care of him..im so excited and happy as well..and another motive is to intro my dearest to my mum and of cuz my jie mei and let both of u haf a look at him..lol..and gif me some comments ya..guess is gonna be so serious and hopefully it does last long though..he is such as nice guy till i guess im so into him alr..and well i found out a shocking news..my ex got married and he is a bastard..juz broke up with me and dare dare get married alr..he is full of lies and whoever got married with him, gd luck man..ended up also kena kick off..im so blessed tat im not the ger, cuz i wouldnt noe wat will happen to me nx..but den i hope retribution befall on him and i be so damn happy..for all the bad things he does, he deserve sumthing bad for him..i hate him to the core..but den my life is so much better without him nw..i feel so much happier than last time, nth to fanz abt..but is juz my future..

8 weeks back hme..

exams is ard the corner and is like so fast..well, all i can say is time passes fast.. another 2 wks, sch will end, and here comes 1 wk study break..exams will start from 17-27 which is like so long..but anyway study hard, everything will be fine for me and hopefully it will..back to jb and i noe i haf to take care of my sis baby, but im so anxious to see gerald..as all my family members mention that the baby is so adorable..but den even if i go bck, i still will miss frends in perth and esp u..is great having to noe him and he is really a caring and nice person..all i can say..

a mth..

another mth to exam..time flies so fast and is like mid may..feel stressed and tired for the entire sem but hopefully is worthwhile..however, sweetest things do happen at times during this stressful period and i feel blessed abt it..enjoying the happiness but den thr r juz too much plannings to be done..will thr be an ending, well i cant predict it at all..juz sumhow wish time can stop for nw,but den back to reality is impossible..lol..anyway weather is changing, getting cold over in perth..sumtimes is nice to be cold but den at the same time, i get tired so easily..feel like just nuaing on the bed all the time..i bet all students haf this kind of feeling, who likes to stay in the lab or library to study..me neither too..anyway saw my sis baby..is cute and chubby but wonder will he be super fat when he grows up..will he be a charming guy when he grows up..guess when i go bck to jb, my hse will be crowded, but sumhow i still prefer staying alone..i love my freedom, without parents interference..do wat i wan to do..anyway juz gonna study hard for this period of time and everything will end soon-which i always tell my frends..lol..