missing..

such a long time since i tok to jason..wondering how has he been,kinda miss him,my small brother..anyway hope everything is fine for him..hehe,missing so many ppl,my frends esp,cant wait to c them..but i shall endure my hard period nw,dieting and sch work..haha sibei sian..but wat to do,life goes on rite..prepare for the hardship nw,soon i will enjoy my sweetness of life..anyway feel happy for my sis too,finally rom and soon to start a family..2007 is the period whr i c so much changes, but i understand 1 thing for sure is not to make any wrong judgement on guys and nv be the victim to get hurt anymore..ppl always say to forgive and forget, i tried,but not at this moment, sad to say tat..i feel tat if u did sumthing wrong, learn frm the mistake and repent, not juz making the same mistake over and over again and eventually regret and confessing to ppl tat u feel sorry for the other person,but wat is the pt,u alr done it..learn frm mistakes & dun repeat history anymore..

time waits for no man..

hmm juz a few days din update blog, aiyo..anyway thanz cheryl for being thr for me ya..hehe, i think i shd be better alr..think very clearly alr, im not going to follow my old footstep and be devoted to a person anymore..watever comes, i will juz accept it, im not going to be sad nor emo anymore..stay strong rite, my dear frend..anyway haf been bz with presentations, nv ending preparation..hehe..sian..i hate referencing, takes up my time though..i haf another 3 projects, and everything will end by 15 oct..gosh, rushing and competing for time nw..another mth to go, tat is like so fast..hehe..

din realise tat today is mooncake festival until my mum msg me..oh ya,great, like wat is the point of telling me..wan me to haf a big feast, carrying lanterns ard or wat..celebrating everything alone is alr pathetic, being alone is alr pathetic, carrying all the pains is alr pathetic, doing assignments is alr pathetic, eating veges is alr pathetic, working part-time is alr pathetic, enduring with the cold is alr pathetic, thinking too much is alr pathetic, hating sum1 is alr pathetic, having a 3rd party is alr pathetic, being a 3rd party is oso pathetic, spending the whole day doing assignment is alr pathetic, missing my mum is alr pathetic, missing my frends is alr pathetic, missing him is alr pathetic, y r u still revolving ard in my life.. wat the hell..i hate my mind, i hate to slp, i hate to be quiet, i hate to think..i hate everything include myself..

安靜

只剩下鋼琴陪我談了一天
睡著的大提琴
安靜的舊舊的
我想你已表現的非常明白
我懂我也知道
你沒有捨不得
你說你也會難過我不相信
牽著你陪著 我也只是曾經
希望他是真的比我還要愛你
我才會逼自己離開
你要我說多難堪
我根本不想分開
為什麼還要我用微笑來帶過
我沒有這種天份
包容你也接受他
不用擔心的太多
我會一直好好過
你已經遠遠離開
我也會慢慢走開
為什麼我連分開都遷就著你
我真的沒有天份
安靜的沒這麼快
我會學著放棄你
是因為我太愛你

on a rainy night..

his ringtone we belong together on his sony ericsson hp, i simply miss him..lying on the bed, hearing the raindrops, couldnt slp..practically tired, trying to close my eyes, no way, cant slp..mind wandering ard..staring into space..is this how am i suppose to lead my bloody life..god pls be thr for me, pull me out frm the misery and pains..

save me

sad, lost, cry, i dunno how to handle this..

hate it..

argh, i feel like scolding this f word..super pek cheh, stupid presentation, no info for it, how to even start..wth..so much problems, so much work, so much to stress..i hate oct period, projects dueing, exams coming..im so slack this sem..it is either hate or love it for nw..shit..