irritated..

with many people walking up and down, doing the construction work, with all the fucking noises,and dust, i feel so pek cheh..juz feel like running out of the hse..and plus nd to do some cleaning up, the hses r juz so fucking dusty..i hate to stay hme for nw, frm nx wk onwards im going to find some activities to do..rather than staying hme being ordered to do this and tat..i can say im simply lazy, but im getting sick of staying hme, facing the tv and lappy..is so fucking boring..yeah i shd ctrl my attitude..

thoughts..

just some thoughts while lying on d bed..i realise i like everything to be fresh..regardless from uni, frends, r/ns..everything seems to go well when it is brand new, i simply love the moment..however as time goes by, everything seems to change..

my aim..

my aim for this week is to send in as many resumes as possible..hopefully i can get a job and start work in september..my 1st interview on wednesday was kinda a gd start, so as the next interview i be more experienced and know how to ans the interviewer in a professional manner..i believe in every interview, the most impt is to possess a confident outlook..wed interview left me speechless at a moment, whr i start to reply by hmm..and i knew this job wouldnt work out for me at all..once the interviewer knew that u r stuttuering which means chances is extremely low..but to encourage myself, thr r always better job opportunities outside and never learn to be demoralised..anyway all d best to me in my nx interview on monday, which is something to do with sales, but den the location is abit far though..leaving with 2 more wks to c u dear, perhaps my last long meeting with u b4 i venture into my career..let me end with 2008 with a gd yr,once and for more, god bless me in watever i do..i believe in u..

pissed..

im going to settle everything once and for all in perth..im not going to haf anything to do with it..i wan to start all over again in sg and fulfill watever plannings i haf thought abt it..each time the mentioning of anything happening in perth, the 1st thing tat comes into my mind is all abt money..fucking not earning any money and all the phone bills, rent, electric, internet bills, im still suppose to pay for everything..fucking nd to get money frm parents, wat a failure daughter they haf..aussie is fucking high and as soon as i get back, i haf to pay all this stuff..i can be thick skin with frends but juz fail to be thick skin with my parents..tired and endless tired to everyday making a din with him..everyday got things to quarrel..i nd a peace of mind at times..patience is not a tolerance for me anymore..

bad week..

wat a bad week..things juz dun work out for me..no company call me for an interview except juz 1 pathetic company and is like so far..2 buses the most i reckon..im not use to taking public transport anymore..so tiring and worst of all is so sweaty..the journey is so far or maybe i simply dunno how to take the short route..but the mrt ride was interesting..able to c different kind of ppl and best of all to c how the gers r dressing nw..i realise tat most of them r indulging into branded bags..the 2 best brands i haf seen..LV and Coach bags that most of the gers r using..well this is the end of the wk, and 2 most bloody things happen to me..1st is for nth, my mum step my handphone and thr is patch of black colour thingy on my screen, which means i cant c half of the msgs..i alr dun feel like wasting the money..i noe the money can be spend on clothings and other necessities..and 2nd thing is for nth, i tumble down from the steps..and bloody tear my butt skin and my knee is bleeding..but lucky only blood on my skin..but den my butt is paining like hell, guess is gonna swollen..big butt..lol..again, i feel so bored at hme, anywhr oso din go..im getting sick and tired of staying hme..SIAN is the word i haf been mentioning ever since i came back..i get very irritated these few days and i tend to flare up with every1..even my mum dun even dare to tok to me, cuz i simply dun ans to her complaints..i juz wan to be alone at times, without any1 mumbling this and tat..alr life is so bored and ppl come and scold u this and tat, i simply juz hate it..i noe i haf nth better to do, but juz ppl if u wan to find ppl to vent on your frustration, dun look for me..cuz i will not entertain anybody..

next step..

results out..and nw alot of nx plannings to be done..first to settle my bond thingy, next is to decide wht to go back to perth early or juz attend for covocation..im in a dilemma, if go back early, i be bored dead..dear will be off to work or schooling and nobody to accompany me..if go back late, at least i can look for job..im juz hanging in btw..so if can, i nd help man..shd i rush to work 1st or shd i juz rest 1st..sian..

sian..

early in d morning.. awake..the fear and panic..watching mtv and staring into space..i super sian, if only thr is some1 to accompany me, would i feel much better..dear, i wish i could juz hug u and i needa your shoulder..missing u at this time of the day..