deep feeling..

wondering my mind, sitting alone, thinking alot..wat can i do to repay my dad nx time, how long can i earn back all the $ tat he send me overseas to study and all the expenses..simply feel so painful when i saw him, he aged alot..he is sloughing hard for me and all i did was study and enjoy myself with his $..i only feel sad when i see my dad, i dare not even look at him,fear tat i will cry..and wat makes me more painful is on tat day of my sis wedding, he is sick..he sat thr whole nite, he muz be feeling painful, juz to c his daughter get married, to c his daughter happiness..since young, he dote on us alot,watever we wan, he gif it to us, no matter how expensive it is..it shd be a happy moment for me to get hme, but nevertheless, it makes me feel sad and painful esp when i return to perth..everyone who is close to me seems to be facing so much problems and sorrows..when will i get to c their happiness..anyway cheryl, thanz for the jay chou cd, listen to track 5, the songs very sentimental..upon hearing it, i realise tears in my eyes, cuz is too emo alr..anyway once again, i miss u alot, with u ard, i think i wun be thinking so much..thanz again..