disappointment

is it gd to be caught by my mum for being smoking..i noe she is disappointed with me and i feel sad when she say tat to me..but is not really a bad thing tat she noes it, since i dun even haf the intention to hide it behind her back..but sumhow i juz feel tat my mum is very fanz, i cant imagine myself going bck to msia and thr she is nagging..i simply hate to go bck hme..maybe im use to my alone and freedom life..hate the feeling of being ctrl..asking me whr am i going blah blah blah..irritated..i hate to c my relatives, toking so much behind my bck, they r such nuisance..and being spotted smoking by all of them, which adds to another topic for them to gossip abt....sumtimes i juz wish they could juz shut their mouth and bother abt their own biz and not to interfere into other ppl problems..ever since i came to mel and met with all my relatives, i feel tat sumhow i hate a few of them..i use to tok alot with my mum, but nw i feel tat she changes alot..becoming more sensitive and simply hate toking to her abt my own personal stuff, she will nv understand..when she caught my, she is consoling herself and all i did was kept quiet..