beach..

a great day to go to the beach..is like super hot and went for suntanning in the beach..oh my god, my hands r like so dark..but simply love the sun and drinking lots of cold water..shiok..summer is here, love it..

shitty day..

not in a gd mood..juz dun feel like doing anything and lie down on the sofa..rotting is the best way, without any1 disturbing me, dun even feel like toking..weather is hot, went down got boost and stroll along the river..felt much better, looking at the sun setting..well since summer is here, gd for sun tanning..

13 days..

another 13 days and i be bck to jb for my long holidays..a short holiday trip to melbourne and so much things happen here..mostly disappointment..planning for nx holiday trip, hopefully to bangkong, my ideal plc and im determined to go thr since it is alr part of my plan..alot of plannings when i go bck to jb..of cuz i will go over klang to visit my best best buddy,kinda miss him so much..and to kl shopping ard hopefully..of cuz off to sg too, holland v, here i come..my dearest hoegarden..i shall drink till drop down..hopefully i haf a plc to stay to when im drunk..i shall spend more time with my best best frend, nd some catching up though..miss u greatly..

yearning..

im yearning for a nice holiday but not in any part of australia..i wan to go bangkok and shop ard esp for nice dresses..im so bored in mel, cant be shopping thr everyday..but the pub areas in mel is not too bad, get to drink hoegarden, shiok.. but i still miss holland village, simply love the scenery and enjoy my hoegarden..anyway not sure wht am i going bck to msia, im still making a decision btw wht to go bck or not..sian..

im not happy..

i really dun understand u anymore..tired of guessing and thinking wat is on your mind..y izzit so tough for u to change..i disappoint ppl and u disappoint me..getting tired..i dunwan to face reality,wish i could juz stay here and i dun wish to go bck..

disappointment

is it gd to be caught by my mum for being smoking..i noe she is disappointed with me and i feel sad when she say tat to me..but is not really a bad thing tat she noes it, since i dun even haf the intention to hide it behind her back..but sumhow i juz feel tat my mum is very fanz, i cant imagine myself going bck to msia and thr she is nagging..i simply hate to go bck hme..maybe im use to my alone and freedom life..hate the feeling of being ctrl..asking me whr am i going blah blah blah..irritated..i hate to c my relatives, toking so much behind my bck, they r such nuisance..and being spotted smoking by all of them, which adds to another topic for them to gossip abt....sumtimes i juz wish they could juz shut their mouth and bother abt their own biz and not to interfere into other ppl problems..ever since i came to mel and met with all my relatives, i feel tat sumhow i hate a few of them..i use to tok alot with my mum, but nw i feel tat she changes alot..becoming more sensitive and simply hate toking to her abt my own personal stuff, she will nv understand..when she caught my, she is consoling herself and all i did was kept quiet..

disappointment