patient..

i dunno how long u can be patient enough, hopefully u r not giving up nor being impatient abt this r/ns..sumtimes when a person couldnt stand it, they simply dun even noe wat they'r toking abt, till when 1 day they sit down and realise tat they r making a big mistake..i hope u r not 1 of the person..trying to make myself a patient person ever since i came back..be patient, only can i achieve..job searching is tough no matter whr am i..even if i haf alr gotten a job, but well, thr is still some admin work for me to do..i noe regardless which plc im working at, is still the same..anyway juz bless myself, hopefully everything goes smoothly..lastly, i miss u greatly..

feeling guilty..

each time i think of my dear, i feel so guilty, y..im still blaming myself for juz leaving him thr alone..thinking that nobody accompany him to eat or slp..nobody waiting for him to come hme, but i juz hope tat he'll soon get use to this kind of lifestyle..but nevertheless though is an ldr, but i believe in myself tat it's workable..making sure tat he online everyday, seeing him, ensuring tat he's eating all his proper meals..though ldr, but im sure tat i haf the capability to take care of him by only communicating with him..ensuring him not to skip meals, perhaps im becoming more like an auntie, but dear, sorry this's wat i am..nobody to take care of him, therefore, as a gf, i haf to try my best to be fierce at him at times..yeah ldr at times r tough, but never say gif up, everything'll go smoothly..once again, awaiting for his pr status, another 2 mths plus to go, soon..awaiting for his big smile on his face..god'll bless him..and study hard 2 mths, is fast alrite.. i miss u dearly..

shopping for working clothes..

realising tat i couldnt accept the fact tat im actually looking for working clothes nw..usually i'll pop by into those shops selling casual wear, nevertheless today seems weird enough tat im looking at the shops tat usually working adults r entering into..it seems difficult to even find a nice working clothes..esp the top is the hardest of all, and i believe wat my mum says, top is more difficult to find than bottom..b4 start work, it's a definite to splurge on working clothes..realising tat perth already difficult to find but den sg is also equally the same..y am i preparing for clothes when i dun even haf any interview successfully approved..sigh, life sucks for nw, but i shall take it slowly, i believe in luck and miracles at times..

6th day

i haf already left u for the 6 days, time really passes fast, a week has already gone..this yr really pass very fast perhaps, cuz every single day in perth seems to be my happiest memories..but everything is a blessing for me, since i haf got him..therefore really hope tat nth will change for both of us..but i believe to monitor a person isnt going to be difficult task, juz communicate every single day and noe wat the other party is doing, everything'll juz go smoothly..glad tat every nite we do tok on msn, at least i noe tat he doesnt go anywhr but only to spend time online with me..at least is gd tat he doesnt really haf outside entertainment but only revolving with his work and studies..im getting sad each time, pressurizing myself to find a job..but if i dun look carefully for the job i like it, i guess i'll regret even more..i haf to gif myself a dead line on when exactly shd i be starting a job..if hopefully by this month end or beginning of oct im able to get the job, i be delighted at least, thr is some money coming in soon..dear, i miss u lots, these 3 words..

i miss you..

forgotten to add the 3 words, i miss you once again..

interviews..

well, enough of childish stuff with a small ger, is wasting my time..well today 2 interview hopefully i can comment by saying perhaps it does goes well..but perhaps i could say thr r more opportunities for me to search abt, rather than sticking into juz 2 interviews i went..i think monday would be a day to search for jobs..and i guess im lacking of working clothes, this's bad man..got to think abt wat to wear everyday..but is time to be mature soon..think logically, reasoning, and mature..

privacy requested..

nv in my life haf i ever seen such a person who is intruding into other ppl's r/ns..come on man, cant a ger juz let go a guy and let him lead his new r/ns happily..how could she even haf the authorization to check the guy's email at all, isnt this call privacy being intruded at all..who does she think she belongs to nw, i do get flare up abt this, but is simply too childish enough to even scold a ger who's younger than me.. i tried to protect him, but not myself, juz hate d way she say him..some ppl r juz too free enough to do all these kind of childish stuff, but i dun understand since she has so much nite socialization going on, how can she even bother abt small issue over these..she could ask ppl to grow up by not crying, but i think, she shd juz sit down and think abt who shd be growing up by nw..well, i guess the ans is obvious, she shd be the 1 growing up..i juz wonder how could my guy even go with these ger for a couple of yrs, is simply juz wasting his time..but den i understand fully, when love is thr, it's impossible to escape frm it..i guess i dun even haf the rite to say him, cuz i haf alr experience it once and for all..hopefully, my blog wun be intruded by some ppl who r unwelcome as well..this blog is only meant for ppl who r dearest and closest to me..hopefully my blog isnt search by some unwanted ppl..