alone..

when u needed some1 to tok to you, i just couldnt find 1 at all..is either busy doing stuff or haf this and tat..i rather not find any1 to tok at all..who would even understand me at all, i rather understand myself..problems r always faced by yourself, no1 can help at all..i really couldnt take it anymore, i wanted to explode sooner or ltr..who understands at all..Nobody..

sudden missing..

i suddenly miss timmy, how i wish he is now with me to face all my problems..i nd a hug frm him, i nd some1 to tok to me, however, he is working and i have to be all alone, thinking too much..dearest, missing u too much..

sudden rain..

suddenly rain in the nite at 9 plus, does this represent my feelings, crying out loud inside my heart..facing difficulties at work, hate this work to the core..just started work, however, a decision has been facing me, shd i ever gif up this job..shd i even start looking for a job..work permit, cuz im holding this, everything is so messy..facing lots of problems, feeling stress, no way to run away from reality..

work..

work doesnt seems to go smoothly for me..realising tat i dun seem to like my job at all, sales, tough job..when can i see figures,im getting worried everyday..it seems so tedious and stressful each day i go to work..i really dunno how long can i continue for this job..im dragging myself to work every day, im just so tired and panic..work does seem tougher than studying, nw i understand y many ppl say they prefer to study rather than work.. sumhow during the nites, i start to miss my rented apartment in perth, there use to be no stress but freedom..nobody to bother you at all, just me alone, freedom to do wat i want..at nite, at least, there is some1 to accompany me, however, nw back in jb, im all alone..mum always out, sis got her hubby and kid..however, im just all alone..go out also nowhere to go but rather stay at hme and rest..life, i really do not know the definition of it..dear, use to ask me what do i understand the meaning of life, but nevertheless, i know that i am speechless, i dont even know the answer..

obssessed..

i guess im nw getting so obssessed with Janice..her songs r super nice and sad..therefore, if you are in an emotional state, listen to her songs..plus she is pretty as well, no wonder my dearest is so obssessed with her..lol..i miss u always dearest..

life..

early morning wake up and here im in office..i nd a bed badly to haf a nice slp..thinking of the no of wks and just hope time passes by fast, at least for once, i needed to c him badly..i just pray hard tat thr will be sales coming in january at least, so that i can go off happily to enjoy my holidays in perth with him.. i misses perth alot, who dont want to settle down in a plc whr the life is so peaceful and relaxing..i also yearn for tat moment, but just facing too much obstacles..i dun even noe how to overcome everything, i only rmb sumthing, life is short, therefore we must live to the fullest..but im glad tat at least, he is thr to support me, to help me, at least thr is a guy who is really willing to do lots of things for me..thanks for everything, i can say so..

bored..

im just bored to the max..nth much to do in office, which makes my mind start to wander ard..din haf gd sleep recently, worrying too much..yeah perhaps is a gd thing tat my mum say i shdnt think so much, but just let it be..everything is just fated.. mum told me to take it easy, is true..i rather not do anything, but just let things run smoothly, wat is mine is meant to be mine..sometimes is juz nice hearing mum's advices, aft all, she has gone thru the period and i always believe my mum's judgement in everything..she's always accurate, lol, how i wish she can predict my future.. however, for nw, i just want to be happy, nv let other things overwhelm my mood, my happiness.. i love him, therefore, i believe everything will be alrite, i trust him and i dont want to give him so much things to worry abt me..he has his job to worry abt,he has his financial to worry abt, and i understand that a guy shd always plan their financial ahead of time in order to lead a better life in future..i saluate him alot, he always plan for the future..when young, start saving up money and in future, perhaps he will be leading a gd life..i believe, really everything muz start frm young and thus this will become a habit..this is something to admire, how i wish i can learn frm him, therefore, dear i muz haf some encouragement from you, that is start saving up money..