worthless..

yes all alone, i really dunno wat status am i wherever i go, wat status im when i start work, wat status am i even at hme..im juz sick of staying at hme, im so bored..the only thing tat my status at hme perhaps is to be a driver, to look aft the maid, to help out with random stuff, im not trying to complain, but juz cuz i dun go out, do i even haf to do all these..and plus im being accused for causing the baby to cry last nite juz cuz the maid told my mum tat i scold the bb to drink milk, but i din even do tat, y am i fucking haf to be accused for this..is only a small matter, but i juz hate the feeling of being scolded as though im the fierce person who always scold the bb..my mum came and confront me and ask me not to do tat, fucking shit, since when did i ever do tat..ok since she treated me as the so called "bad" person, i no longer haf to bother so much alr..im being the gd person and kind person, help every1 to pick up the bb, and im being treated as the bad person..y am i fucking being accused for things i nv do at all, y muz i being treated like this..y am i always the bad person..y? i really dun understand, in their heart, is my status tat bad..i really no longer feel like even staying at hme, i hate to tok to every1 at hme, they r the 1s who r always stopping me frm this and tat, even my future, they also want to bother, if they meant me well, y muz they still bother wat i do nx time, im already old enough to plan for my own future, y muz they step in at all..y cant i even pursue my future..i understand they spend alot of money on studies and im grateful for everything they provide, perhaps im too independent, prefer to be alone, im juz sick of them interfering into my life..im not trying to be a petty person, but think abt how much i help them, and nw i deserve a accusation frm them..im a human being, with feelings, im juz sad, tired and frustrated with life..cuz they nv noe how tired im, the searching of job itself is already giving me problems, the fact of going for interview is already giving me problems, r they going to add on to my problems, and r they going to let me think alot, r they going to forever not cure my heartbeating..i really dun understand..juz dunwan to even interfere in their plans at all, i lead my own life and they life their own life..i support and provide myself with encouragement, is fine with me, decisions always lies in me..