life..

it has been a mth plus since i have been working, however, the stressful and tiring working lifestyle is kind of hard for me to adapt..everyday it seems to be a worry day, whether thr will be sales coming in, if there is enquiries i wouldnt feel tat scare..however, sumtimes when u enter the office, sumhow thr's no mails inside..and tat is when i nd to find the leads to continue on with competitive environment..no sales can be dangerous, anytime u'll be kick out of the working plc..sales job sumtimes could be the 1st step to enter the working environment, it teaches you how to be competitive and the capability to handle stress..if the next time, when i start another brand new job, i guess it'll be easier for me to adapt to it..life hasnt been gd, i feel tat, for my age, it seems tat my mum is still manipulating my life, telling me wat to do..come on, i'm already a grown up, and i realise tat im not listening to wat she says..i feel tat they r just selfish, this is my life, my own future.. i also discover tat, im getting suspicious and sensitive over my r/ns, perhaps it has got to do with my past r/ns..being cheated behind my back, therefore, since i haf alr gone thru the mistake, if ever, cheating happens again, thr's no more chance and begging..i always believe that if a person has the history of cheating behind their gf, even if a chance is given, they still will not change..ldr it is always the trust word tat's revolving in the r/ns..sumtimes im juz not confident with myself, if i c sum1 who's prettier than me, lol..i guess tis's every ger's mentality..